CyRav1ck Blog

Some thoughts and ramblings too long for posting elsewhere

On Memories

I do not have many memories of my childhood. Not because of some traditional trauma, or not having done things, but because I think at some level I just didn't want to maintain them as that life and my life up until recently never felt like mine. It was a version of me playing a version of me that society and those around me wanted me to be. As I sit here and write, I can truly only think of 10 or so clear memories from my pre-pubescent childhood, and only a handful from my teenage years. Some are bad, some are good, but the ones I can remember do feel like me in the present, or are very strongly related to transitioning.

Jen 🏳️‍⚧️|February 20, 2026

On the Pursuit of Happiness

"Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness", is what my country was founded on. Its not part of the constitution, or any other doctrine in the US. But it is part of our identity or at least for some people. Unfortunately I am part of that group that it seems, doesn't get to have a pursuit of happiness. I am part of a group that despite not inflicting harm on anyone, not taking anyone else's life, liberty, or happiness away, seems to always be at the center of a debate that we do not wish to be a part of. Now which group do you think I am talking about.

Jen 🏳️‍⚧️|October 29, 2025